MaxineNakayla

You are the thoughts in my mind.
You are the guilt i try to hide.
You are the side effects.
Your the dreaded feeling i cant wait to rid.
You are the sensation i dont want to admit.
You are the scar i have to see everyday.

Please, please, leave me alone now.

♥ 6:18 PM

Your mouth, does it ever shut?

Teenagers, all they ever do is talk, and bitch about people.
I should know, i do it quite often.
There are good people in the world that dont do this,
but being in groups of friends, makes them dragged into it.
Little comments, led onto ranting stuff about someone, and then sometimes even making stuff up.

I apologize for crap i say so often, that i hate the word sorry now.
I say stuff without thinking, and i DO regret it, but words cant be unsaid.
I wish, that i could change the way i think and do things,
I'd be such a better person.

I wish that, when someone makes a nasty remark, that i know is untrue, unneeded, that i could stand up for that person.
I wish i could refrain from putting my two cents in every bloody lunchtime and interval. Every class, everytime i go out in the weekends.

Its as bad as bathroom gossip, the kind you hear over the stalls then rush to tell your friends, when its been axidently altered.
I wish i could change from what i do. I will try.

♥ 4:56 PM

You're sheding weight, but your gaining beauty.

♥ 4:32 PM

Catch me life, im falling again!

There are so many unanswerable questions, its hard to get my head around everything.

♥ 8:07 PM

we ignore those people that adore us,
adore those people that ignore us,
hurt those people that love us,
and love those people that hurt us.

♥ 2:42 PM

Birthday in two sleeps, finally i'm growing up.

I get these visions in my head, and i can see it so clearly, and i know what i have to do to make it real, but no matter how hard i try, it never comes out how i imagine it. I WISH WISH WISH that i had a camera in my eyes, and all i'd have to do would be blink with the magic word and what i see prints out in polaroid or something. I dont know, but i always get really cool visions about things... I wish that things wernt so lame and disapointing all the time.

♥ 12:48 PM

Who was i to kid? things wont change. You're a wanker. Not even exagerating. And you dont see why them girls are calling you a player? A loser? I thought you were great (: i still do kind of. But you're still a prick. Yano, how you said i'd make your life better? i would. Ya know i can, we've been down that road. Oh well. Yano, i didnt ask you to put your life on hold for me. I didnt even say i wanted to be yours. You just assumed you were my life. Oh how i fell down that trap! Maybe, one day, you'll realise, you're wrong for calling me just a kid, cause we know im so much more.

♥ 5:36 PM

And I need you. And I miss you.
And now I wonder....
If I could fall, Into the sky, Do you think time, Would pass me by, 'Cause you know, I'd walk a thousand miles, If I could just see you tonight

♥ 6:19 PM

i think i may have some kind of mood disorder. i want to say ADD or some kind of autism? maybe bipolar? I change my mood and mind so often that its hard to keep up.
Reading through all my blogs, im up and down like a yoyo.
its a wonder why i still have friends with the frequency that i change my mind.

Thanks for sticking round yeh?

♥ 9:55 PM

Shades were grey, but they're lightening up.

Im talking to Tyrone again! i dont know why hes talking to me, but its nice. This time, i think that if we're just friends, and sort through my problems, maybe things can be okay. I miss him quite alot.

♥ 9:35 PM

- Armour your heart, block it out

♥ 10:17 PM

Its that feeling where you know somethings not right but its all going to go away and be great again, and its worth sticking round the bad parts.
Its acknowledging when they have been a cunt but then knowing they didnt mean to be and when they make it back up to you, letting the good things > the bad things. Trusting them more than you trust yourself, giving them power to destroy you, but trusting them not to, you dont know exsactly when your inlove, it just comes naturally, and builds up (:

♥ 12:11 PM

- Pessimism
A tendency to stress the negative or unfavorable or to take the gloomiest possible view: "We have seen too much defeatism, too much pessimism, too much of a negative approach"

♥ 4:16 AM

Falling for you, dumb prick!

♥ 4:07 AM

So, its winter again, and its been raining heaps, the skies grey, the grounds are muddy, moods are down and its a crap time cooped up inside.

But! I can always count on Rubie to bring the sunshine back :)

♥ 7:55 PM